Work in process

This is ivan...uhhm...its hard to explain who ivan is xD. Ivan was a kinda like my best friend in an dark chapter of my life but he isnt a real person..
When i went to the 5th class the most people stardet to hate or ignore me . And when i went home i cried a lot. i never had much friends but i never expected everyone would hate me like that. Dealing with bad marks and mobbing and i had noone to talk to (i got my first acc in an online chat webside when it was near end of the 5th grade...) Then after a short time i stardet to dream about a guy and he told me to call him ivan. when i asked "Is that your REAL name?" he said no but it would sound better. ivan was a kinda like my best friend at this time . When veroo stardet to be my friend he dissapeared. i missed him a bit because i was able to tell him EvERYTHING... I miss him a kinda because when i am in school and the others tell lies or mock me i wish he would be there for me (beside the fact he isnt real)
Please dont think i am crazie or something xD he was a good friend when i was little but now he is just a memory
i really want to know were he came from...Because i never saw omeone like him in my intired life. o.o

i try my best to finish that picture when i am healthy again. i am not doing to well at the moment . i am awake since 4:15 am because of my headace i cant sleep and these crappy painkillers make it even worse -_- I really want to go to bed again QmQ....its to early for mani for sitting behind her laptop but i have no idea what to do with my time right now , i cant draw right now , piano is murdering my ears right now . and i cant watch movies because my mom left my favorits by her friend (he is a good friend of her) in franken -_- sooo..im going to watch grave encounters again
BEST MOViE eveR!!!

trying to draw realistic humans...yey

Ivan (c) himself
Art (c) me